I’m trying to do a lot these days – figure things out, define things, plan things, ideas+action=LIFE. And I’m getting closer. I really think that 2018 might be the year of action.
Look I know I’ve said that before. Maybe every year for the past decade? No, that’s an exaggeration. OK at least every year for the past 5. But this time it’s different.
I see the trend. That the past 5 years have been preparation. I can almost detail out the plan:
YEAR 1 – homecoming
YEAR 2 – cleansing and healing
YEAR 3 – reconciliation
YEAR 4 – clarity and planning (even though it seemed like the opposite of that moving through it…more on this later
YEAR 5 – ACTION
I think what I’m realizing (I mean right now, as I’m writing this) is that this is NOT separate from ideas. This is not a unique and identified step. You don’t have ideas for 6 months and then take action. That’s not how it works.
You have ideas in THE MIDST of action. You take action in THE MIDST of ideas.
See, things change, all the time. That’s the nature of being agile and fluid, flexible and adaptable. And that’s the ultimate nature of creativity, of God, of life in this Universe and of CO-CREATING with God. And that’s why we practice value #19. Because this stuff doesn’t happen in isolation. Again, life isn’t like that. We are holistic beings created to merge with complexity and diversity, variation in the very act of being the God-matter that we ARE, of living in this connection with the Divine nature within us. This is what contemplation teaches us.
This stuff does NOT come easily. But it comes to he who brings it. OK that was maybe old style King James version surfer lingo Englisht, but you get muh drift.
You have got to want it.
You have got to work it.
You have got to make it habitual.
You have got to take small steps in the right direction.
The question is ‘but what is the right direction?’ And the unfortunate answer is that I have no fucking idea. No clue. Literally. I mean what conspires to make one person successful and another not? Why do 2 people talk about the. same. damn. thing. and one person goes viral (the modern version of hitting the lottery, minus the obvious benefits) while another labors in obscurity wondering what hole his work is falling into to be ignored so effectively.
Even this is hard. Keeping this running for 500 words. 500 damn words. It feels like a freaking dissertation. And EVERY DAY? I mean it’s so hard (WAAAAAAAAAAH!) But I have to. For the practice. For the discipline. For the output, the outcome.
And for this we wait. We struggle. We persist. We overcome.
Going through the process, no matter how imperfect, is what we have to work with. And I think that it’s about revisiting and reworking that process that clarity comes, that the plan comes, that action results. Because having a 30,000 ft view is necessary to detailing a specific plan on the ground, and then that plan is necessary to answering the question of HOW. The WHY comes first. Then what and how.
But where is God in all this? How do we develop a strategy, set goals and make a plan when we ‘don’t know where God is taking us’? How do we leave this up to him to decide when and where, when that is the stuff that we are trying to determine by developing all these actions in the first place? See, that’s where I think we get it all wrong.
I think that God is looking to us to take steps, to do the gritty hard detail work of ACTION, but with a sort of ‘hands off’ or ‘lose grip’ approach, meaning that we leave the results up to Him. We trust Him for the outcome. We don’t attach our identity to this, we don’t identify with the success or failure (our identity should be grounded in Him anyway) and then we give all glory to Him whether it works out or not. Because we don’t do this for ourselves, or for the results, we do this so that all glory is worked out for Him, to show the world that He works through us and that all is from Him and to Him.
And that my friends is only the beginning.
‘Suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.’